that day can't come fast enough

i am not ok

i miss you 

each day 

that i wake up

and your not here

chips away at my heart

and tears holes in my soul

you were so important to me

my best friend

my family

my guardian angel

i try to be happy

i try to move on

i thanked God that day

because He gave you peace

and reunited you with your charlie

but i don't know

how to do this 

i need you here 

i need you with me

why did you have to leave me

i wish i knew 

how long i have to wait 

to see you again 

so i could start counting down the days 

i love you so much 

there have been so many times

i sat in the shower

simply so the running water 

would hide my tears

because i don't want them to hear

they will say that i need help

i know that they would be right

and that they would mean well

but i also know

no amount of therapy

or anti-depressants 

can ever save me

from the pain i feel

since you left 

and they wont help me

stop missing you 

as badly as i do 

because i love you

and i need you