''I feel lonely''

Can someone just help me

I just need somebody to listen to the F*cking depression that I have

I'm so alone, I feel depression, I feel anxiety

in this F*cking world

I want to break free from all this sh*t

but I can't

because I'm piling up the sh*t

I want to break free from this hell

I can't even do that

because I'm sad

I don't know why, I don't know when

I want to break myself

to the bottom

I don't know when it started

I'm trying to find a way

to help myself

but I'm just sadden

can someone just open my heart

open my soul and open my eyes

I want to se the world for my own eyes

the only feeling here is terror

the only thing I hear is sh*t

I just want to break free

from this pitiful world

where is the beautiful world that I know

when I was a kid

I woke up everyday in the morning

feeling like sh*t and I can't even walk up

I can't even look myself in the mirror anymore

I just wanna break myself

for the weird sh*t I do

but I can't

I'm stuck in the same room

in the same corner

can someone just open their heart

open their soul

I just need someone to hold me close

I know I'm asking much

but I just need someone

I listen to everyone that is close to me

but no one listen to mine

so please

open yourself up for me once

I try my best 

to keep it under control

but I can't anymore

I feel my hands shaking

every time I hear their stories

hearing bout sh*t like this

I can't take

my heart is big

and

the biggest muscle

I just want to break free

but I can't do it

so tear me apart.