My Last note for you

I don't express myself

I don't deal or think with my emotions cause I wasn't taught to do it for me

you are my true first love

I can't be selfish and let you stay

I can't not be selfish and push you away

Though I love you and a part of me will stay with you

Though I felt that part leave when you walked through that door

I need to let go

I hate the idea

I want you to come back

I want you to FIGHT for me at all cost

I can't let you

I see you in my future, But I have to let go

I'm breaking more as I write this

And that call nearly made me make you come back

I must let go not of what we shared but of you

I will wear what you gave me

I will smile as though I never left you

But I will hurt for a while and i know you will too

The worst part of this is I'm doing the one thing i don't want to do

I have to hurt YOU

This last thing pains me to no end cause all I want to see is another day with you

But for once I need to think of me not anyone else

Will I still see you

Will she be better

How soon will we move on

Will we come back to each other

I ask myself this

Cause this is my last note too you

You will be in my heart forever even though not how we thought

-K