Non-logical Logic

Here is my non-logical logic

Here is my hypocritical hatred of hypocrisy

Here is why I think that everyone else is wrong and I’m right

About everyone saying I’m right

Because I disagree

I don’t think I want my life because it is a good life

No

It is a great life

But why should that matter

Cause a privileged kid unprivileged in knowing unprivileged wants to relate to the unrelatable

And hates himself for the fact he can’t

Why?

Because he doesn’t want to have it good

He wants struggle

He wants what he hears about in all the made up stories of his mind

And while he thinks and writes his real-life moves

Moves around him in ways he chooses to not understand

But it would be so easy

To easy

But would it?

He wouldn’t know

He has never tired

Not to himself or anyone else

Himself is I

I is throwing away

I is letting decay

Screw grammer

Because all it creates is teachers and Nazis

I turn to we in my generation of love through hatred

Making love and spreading knowledge of good

Through means and terms of agree or be wrong

Who needs to be woke when I would much rather be asleep?

Don’t you see?

Don’t you see what you are doing brothers and sisters of my disowned age?

We are continuing the pattern that will just continue on through all of time

It doesn’t matter

NOTHING EVER DOES OR EVER WILL

But it helps a cause more if you truly act the part instead of just looking like it at the forefront

You saying that the opposition should be scalded and take your place will only give them the power you now hold to rise up and take over

Putting violence against the ones you say make the violence would only help them right?

But what will they say to the privileged white male who poses these questions?

I don’t really care anyways

Because those struggles are not my focus

I find it funny that within all this my generation is also known for WANTING TO DIE

that’s fun ain’t it?

so what’s the problem with all the school shooters?

and terrorist attacks?

I don’t want to die

They don’t either

So don’t say what you don’t mean

I want to not be required to exist

I want to not be required

I want to not be

Because then I don’t have to die

Because then I don’t have to

Because then I don’t

MY HEAD WANTS TO EXPLODE AND RELEASE THE FIRES THAT NO ONE HAS EXPERIENCED

MY HEART WANTS TO LEAP FROM MY CHEST AND DIVE VEINS FIRST OFF A BUILDING

but what if someone else has experienced worse?

What if everyone feels this amount of pain every day and I am just

sad

but what then if it is the opposite?

What if this pain is not known in any other capacity anD I AM THE ONE BEING PUNISHED LIKE I DESERVE?

Not being required to exist

Not being required

Not being

I imagine it is what everyone wants

What we are told life will be when we are in middle school, Or at least in my experience

trust me, I already know I’m wrong

I was told you had to find something you liked

After you found it, just do that

Forever

And everything would be awesome

But what if what I liked was Music?

What if what I liked was Video Games?

WHAT IF ALL I EVER WANTED TO BECOME WAS NOTHING AND NOTHING ELSE

then I wouldn’t be where I am It would be bad

 I would lose many great things and people

But it would be good

But it would be

But it would

They would lose me