Lacking

Karoline

I was created with intent.

You raised me carefully

Like a hot house flower

Sheltered from the outside world,

Yet trapped inside

A little storm

 

I was a child.

Difficult. Innocent. 

I did not understand 

Why I should be more like you

When to be anyone but myself

Severed me

 

I lashed out 

Again and again,

Silently begging you,

Imploring you to see

That every mistake I made

Was an attempt to improve,

Though you did not approve.

 

Now I am a mother 

& my own children suffer

When I cannot control

The anger, sadness, fear, guilt,

The pain I feel 

At never being enough for you

For them, for myself,

Or for anyone at all.

  • Author: Karoline (Offline Offline)
  • Published: April 4th, 2018 02:08
  • Category: Unclassified
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Comments4

  • BRIAN & ANGELA

    THANKS FOR SHARING & CARING KAROLINE ~ Thanks GOD for Mothers ~ They keep the EARTH on its axis ! APRON STRINGS are rigid ~ then elastic ~ then they SNAP ! C'est tuojours la VIE ! Loved the structure and flow of your poem ! Your BRIAN Please check my poems ~ Thanks B.

    • Karoline

      Thank you Brian 😊 You're very kind!

    • sylviasearcher

      The scars of not being enough can run deep. You need to be like the Phoenix and burst those scars into flames and rise

      • Karoline

        I don't think you ever really get over feeling like you aren't enough, but you're right, every bad experience is an opportunity to start a new chapter!

      • Lorna

        I think parents - with the best of intentions - make many mistakes...... fear probably motivates most of them..... they're scared that if children veer off course they will be lost so they try to mold them into what they think will work.

        • Karoline

          I agree! I love my parents despite everything. They really did try their best. They just don't know how to be any way other than the way they are, and I've come to terms with that.

          • Lorna

            Yup! Parenting doesn't come with a manual!

          • RiverJordan

            "Sheltered from the outside world, yet trapped inside a little storm", that line hit hard, nice piece!..stay strong!!

            • Karoline

              Thank you 😊 x



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