Free Verse Number 24

Dear self where do you find yourself where you see me

Every single line becomes a voice inside your sea

You see

I left her on the doorstep our love was ever true

The fact is i learned a lot what exactly well im not always sure

But I left it behind now and that is the forward moving stone yet ever unturned

I love you and all that you are

But baby lately we’ve been drifting apart and i know it began well and was never supposed to end

But how do we know those things weren’t our pretend

How do we know our future at 18

We can’t and never will our lives are unforeseen

I want to come back to you and want to go away

So im saying goodbye again just for one more day

You see I fell in love with real and not fake

And you fell in love with every other mistake

Our paths were a misstep and just what we need

Ed our paths were a misstep and from that flowers seed

Ed i know you arent as scared and that makes me feel like I’ve made a difference

The difference is things got hard and life threw us against the ground

I love you and all that you are

But baby lately we’ve been drifting apart and i know it began well and was never supposed to end

But how do we know those things weren’t our pretend

How do we know our future at 18

We can’t and never will our lives are unforeseen

I want to come back to you and want to go away

So Im saying goodbye again just for one more day

I’m trying to learn

Give me what i need life its my turn

Or maybe it was

If this is what i need how do i know that need won’t conquer me

If this is what i want im standing in a circle

All around me no points no thoughts just a line that doesnt end

The beginning was never clear and now that time has passed

When will i begin again and when will my time run out of gas

I love you and all that you are

But baby lately we’ve been drifting apart and i know it began well and was never supposed to end

But how do we know those things weren’t our pretend

How do we know our future at 18

We can’t and never will our lives are unforeseen

I want to come back to you and want to go away

So Im saying goodbye again just for one more day

The fact is i missed you and became confused

I love you and my alone and those got fused

And in the end no one was left unscathed

Except for me of course because im not the hero today

If this is a story where do i write and how do the thoughts form its not that kind of fight

If this is a song where are the verse what is the rhyming scheme what is the purpose

If this is a poem then it won’t hit deep

It won’t make any fucking sense at the end of this beat

I love you and all that you are

But baby lately we’ve been drifting apart and i know it began well and was never supposed to end

But how do we know those things weren’t our pretend

How do we know our future at 18

We can’t and never will our lives are unforeseen

I want to come back to you and want to go away

So Im saying goodbye again just for one more day

I hear your voice and see your face and every single thought runs out of the place

Then in creeps the memories and the darkest of tears

It’s only been fifteen months not fifteen years

I should be able to move on life should be clean

I should be able to vacuum up this scene

But maybe it’s not her or me or him or us

Maybe the truth is that life just fucking sucks

Yet others walk around with the smiles off fade

Making me want to be them be under their shade

Make me want to see them and ask them how they are

When in truth i just want to be noticed again

I love you and all that you are

But baby lately we’ve been drifting apart and i know it began well and was never supposed to end

But how do we know those things weren’t our pretend

How do we know our future at 18

We can’t and never will our lives are unforeseen

I want to come back to you and want to go away

So Im saying goodbye again and this time it stays

The truth is im unhappy when alone or with you

I need sex and love and all that its true but i also need to grow and sleep and move on

Even though when alone my conscience is gone

We couldn’t have known the future at 18

Even though you think you know life and all that is green

I want to make love with you and feel you and want you to stay

But somehow my mind is telling me it’s better this way