19 year old me...

When I was 10, I got called mean names. 

When I was 11, I began to self shame. 

When I was 12, I had over 1,000 Face book Friends.

When I was 13, I wanted my life to end.

When I was 14, I began to question my sexuality. 

When I was 15, I faced a harsh reality. 

When I was 16, I made new mates at college. 

When I was 17, I thought I had wise knowledge. 


When I was 18, my life came to a stop. Everything I thought I knew, I forgot. 

I was unsettled and unhappy and my life turned upside down. I’m lucky now it’s turned back around. 

People I trusted went against my trust and people I had love for used me for lust. 

At 18 I felt out of control, I felt lost and abandoned and confusion in my soul. 

Things happened when I was 18 that shouldn’t have happened at all. 

Things happened when I was 18 that triggered an emotional fall. 

But things happened when I was 18 that gave me my strength today. 

Things happened when I was 18 that made life seem okay. 

Being 18 sounds so naive and so fun, people think that 18s when your life has just begun. 

But I know that 18 can be far more real then it seems. 

And being 19 has felt like refreshed sun beams. 


I am now 19 very soon to be 20. 

I’m still new to the earth, but I’ve learnt plenty. 

Each day I look forward to new knowledge I can gain.

I’m growing and developing in a life with little pain.

I am now 19 and my life has been refreshed. 

New goals to achieve, a girlfriend to love, Life seems to be the best. 

Each day I feel grateful for the life I'm blessed to live,

The years behind me have taught me how to forget and to forgive. 

I am now 19 and excited for what future years will bring, 

Preparing for all kinds adventure, and new ideas to spring. 


I wonder what my 20’s show? I wonder if they’ll be good? 

But wonder is where my curiosity ends. I wouldn’t want to know if I could. 

I hope that when my 20’s arrive they arrive with peace and love.

Even though my life has had some downs, overall its been unbelievably good. 

I just cant wait to relax and live and see what happens next. 

I’m just continuing to  live my life, with hope, love and respect. 


Peace and love ~E


  • Accidental Poet

    Well, you're definitively a survivor E. That's a lot of living in a short time. And it might seem like a lot of hard living, but they are great lessons in life. When I was 18, Alice Cooper was on the radio singing, "I'm 18". It was a huge hit song for him and it rang true for me. I didn't know if I was coming or going. But it sounds like you're well on your way to figuring out who you are and where you want to go in life. Best of luck, but most of all...keep writing your poetry. It's wonderful.

    • E-Poems

      Thank you so much, I've admired a lot of your work and specifically liked your recent one about time. you've had a lot more living experience to me so I'll take your advice onboard definitely, I'm sure I could learn a thing or two just through conversations with you, Thank you for your comment, it has made my evening!

      Sending love ~ E

      • Accidental Poet

        You're welcome E. Enjoy your evening.

      • Laura🌻

        A super write which I enjoyed reading! You have a great outlook on living your life from this point on!

        Great ending to your poem...
        “I’m just continuing to live my life, with hope, love and respect.”

        With such positivity on life, you WILL be just fine! You are wise beyond your years! I admire you! Love your pics!


        • E-Poems

          Wow such lovely compliments, thank you Laura It really is lovely to hear such kind words.

          I'll be sure to check out your poetry tomorrow when I have a little more time to focus.

          Sending love ~ E

          • Laura🌻

            You deserve the compliments! I enjoyed your poem very much! I wish I had been as wise and focused as you are at your age!

          • sharda92

            This poem made me real emotionally cause I can relate with a lot of what your saying. Then a bit of joy care. To know that everything has gotten better. This was absolutely amazing!!!😊

            • E-Poems

              I'm glad I portrayed such emotion through my poem. Thank you very much!


            • orchidee

              A fine write E. Of course, no one gets older than 21. If you ask them how old they are on their birthday, they say 'Oh, I'm 21 again, don't you know?!' lol

              • E-Poems

                Hahah! of course 🙂

              • Maxine Smith

                Just Awsome. Survival of the fittest. Empowering to strive forward to your future.
                Again another 👌 write.

                • E-Poems

                  Thank you dearly maxine!

                • RhysPieces

                  Refreshing read and keep it up, it was lovely x

                  • E-Poems

                    thank you Rhys, glad you enjoyed!!

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