Fucking Attention Seekers

Fucking attention seeker, said those who did not care,
It’s such a tragedy said those who never knew,
How selfish, said those who snare
I wonder how the family feels, said those in the queue

They turn to me, and say with false sympathy
Oh did you hear? They committed suicide
They topped themselves, they said instantly,
Laughing as if I’ll take it in my stride

How fucking dare you, say I fuelled with anger,
It rises from my toes, and tears pour
Do you know how it feels, have a gander
Because I’m about to show you out the door

“Fucking attention seeker” you say?
No I didn’t know how to live my life without pain
“It’s such a tragedy?” Oh my days
That’s a fucking understatement for someone who’s slain

“How selfish” you say?
No anxiety, BPD, Bipolar, Depression are
“I wonder how the family feels”, oo nay
I’ll tell you how they fucking feel, I’ll go quite far

They feel guilty, they feel helpless
They don’t want your sympathy,
“I understand your pain” it’s endless
Bullshit! Don’t say it so flippantly

How dare you think you know,
You have no idea, any of it
How could you though
When you’ve not been on both sides of it

I wanted to die, I wanted to expire
It’s hurtful tar clung all around you
Grasping at your throat and your desire
To be alive, to eat, so my skin I cut through

She made me feel so hurt and furious
What happened will forever haunt
me, so no matter how much I want
to I won’t end my life, period


  • onepauly

    your poem is a great way to express it.we all have to suffer, some more then others. and all things being equal. we must give up or keep going. that's the choice we have.

    • RhysPieces

      Thank you, I felt the same and found this was the only way I could express it

    • Lee Renard Caspian

      So sorry you had to love through this with people who couldn't or wouldn't understand. Thank you for sharing this, and for bravely tackling this topic.

    • kitcat

      There are quite a few people out there who are so ignorant, You expressed yourself Superb Well Done You

    • GON

      I cannot say I've found anything artistic in any of your works. You seem to jump straight from a predetermined point to a bit of rhyme-y propaganda, for lack of a better word. This may be how you feel, but it's not art. It's absurd. Try instead to ask a question and pull us through answering it.

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