Running From Myself

I have this emptiness inside me

I have these thoughts that always taunt me

I’m going crazy over how I think things should be

I am just not me

This pain runs through my veins

These crazy thoughts won’t leave my brain

I resorted to drinking it all away

And lately that’s not even enough

Everyday I wake up and suffer 

From my own torturing insecurities combined with all of my impurities 

I just want to run away

but I can’t run from myself

So I keep drinking this drink and smoking this cigarette

Until I forget that there is any pain

When it all wears off I come to find

That all those feelings are still attached to me like a ball & chain

I’m in a vicious cycle 

And no matter how hard I try to

I can’t get out of this place