I don't like this

I'm starting to hate you just like you wanted 

I fought back frustration and tears just to keep you by my side with high hopes in my mind 

But bit by bit, you chipped away at my patience and my forgiveness. 

I thought I could stomach whatever you had to throw at me but you picked and pulled relentlessly.

I tried to let it go, to let it wash over and move on but a few rounds wasn't enough.

Now I roll my eyes at every resemblance of you 

Now I nearly dread hearing from you because you always come back and pretend nothing happened. 

I almost want to cry but I can't. I don't want to shed a tear over you anymore.

I can't remember why I was desperately holding on to you, hoping you'd see me. I was delusional and you brought me back to cruel reality.

I'm just lost in thought when it comes to you. I don't know what to do but I know I can't let you back in. 

It's not fair that you get to live on peacefully with no regrets, while I'm left behind to wonder what I actually mean to you.

I don't want to hate you. Please don't make me regret the day I met you.