i thought about it like that

i set there and thought about my life 

i sought to find out why i feel like this 

i talked to my self im the one to understand my self most 

my mind was in a knot 

i wondered why i wanted another relationship so bad

amd why ive been so sad 

i thought about it all for a long long time 

i thought about why it was a crime to want the other half that seemingly broke off

then it hit me like a staff but with out the brain but with out the pain 

i met the conclusion that i dont need an enchanting female to impale my heart with the double edged blade of love 

love often hurts like that 

i want a connection a person i had with my lost friend 

i miss how we would send text after text 

or when we lied under the sun and chat 

i liked that i liked...you

but that sun has burned out 

the drought was no more 

and rain started to poor an ocean of tears 

all the fears i once had flowed back in as well 

all those emotions stack back up 

you wouldnt comply 

it used to be me and you against the world 

i miss that 

now i know not if your dead or at least alive 

it deprives my mind of sanity to not have you around

now i walk the around all grounds we stepped on 

lonely with out you 

i now see the flaws in you 

that killed what we had 

ill find a friend better than you its times to step off the ground we had 

times to ride into the distance with a bike with no brakes not knowing of where im going 

but only how im getting there.... good bye sky good bye ground ill be in space exploring what you never gave me...space 

                                                                                                                    a poem by levi cloninger