heartbroken heartbreaker

Feelings are too complex for me at times,

Making it hard for me to sit down and write rhymes.

One second I love them, the next I am broken,

One second I am bi, the next it's unspoken.

I question my for my family too,

Sometimes I'm so lost I don't know what to do.

Nothing to do but stare at my ceiling lost in thought,

Nothing to do but question the "love" I had caught.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm a robot in a girl's body,

Who is incapable of loving, who is stuck up and snotty.

It's like I love someone and then I don't,

Saying I need more love but I truly won't.

Trust issues and commitment problems from the start,

Now I have no clue as to who has my heart.

Too scared to reject a brave young soul,

Too scared to face what comes with that toll.

I know I'm indeed confusing, give or take her,

I guess I'm just a heartbroken heartbreaker.