Words seeping into my skull
Should i stand tall or fold
People say to forgive to love again
That should be my goal
Yet i don't want to feel those things again
I don't want to put my faith in you just to fall
You left many times before
Always you returned to me waiting at the open door
I can't breathe when i think of turning back
I was your child you were my rock
Without warning you sunk into the dark waters of despair
I struggled for years to hold you afloat
Hiding my tears and the marks i leave
Trying to be the strong adult i needed you to be
The water dried up while i was sleeping one day
You packed up your stuff and walked away
The tears fell freely for the first night
After that i lost my fight
I cannot control what you choose to do
However i can chose to focus on me
To continue being the adult as you drift further away from me
I'm simply done trying to save you
Every moment i held you up i fell beneath the waves
So long to family that i never really had
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Author:
CInderella_Pixie (Pseudonym) (
Offline) - Published: May 8th, 2018 01:06
- Comment from author about the poem: I raised my Mother from the time i was 8 until i turned 20 when she walked out in the middle of the night.
- Category: Family
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Comments1
hello, this is very good.. i love how you talk of her being your rock but then roles reversed and you attempted to be her rock. i like your reference to the sea . you wrote this very well. its a sad thing when roles are reversed and you have to attempt to be the parent, i'm sorry this happened..
Thank you and yes it is hard when the roles are reversed
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