Insanity

Is there something wrong?

Is there something I don't see?

Is there something I don't feel?

Forced to admit my wrongs

Forced to being blind

Forced being empty inside

Don't know what to say

Don't know where to go

Don't know what to feel

I'm the fault and the wrong

I'm the blind and the foolish

I'm the empty and cold

But in all of this

I know my mistakes and the consciences

I know that I lost my sight a long time ago

And

I also know that I'm empty because my mind keep fooling me

Is okay to do wrong, I was told because it gives experience

Is okay to be blind because you can still feel the touch

And

Even if you empty and cold you still feel  something close your friends

Everything is a beautiful lie

that we runaway from

Even if I did know why I'm like this

I probably would forget it in time

Because it never really mattered to me

how I felt

Every time I sleep is another hour wasted

I could have worked to actually go up

in the world

Instead of being stuck in my mind

I'm going fucking insane

but what can I do when I write in riddles

My feelings are like a Legend of Zelda twilight Forest Puzzle

with the two giants taking steps in different directions

but end up at the same direction guarding the Master Sword

I'm going mental

I'm stuck in this puzzle until I have completed it

screaming louder and louder for every moment I fail 

and

need to retry

I could have done so many things in my life

but a person with existential crisis why does it even matter

what will change if I do something old?

what will change if I do something new?

Every day is all the same

Every day I just wanna scream

Every day I just want to beat something

Every day I see my reflection

Every day I wonder what would happen 

If I never meet my friends

If I never did any crimes

If I never sleep deprived myself

If I never was born to exist

What is my purpose?

What does my existence mean?

What is my life worth in others eyes?

A Fool is someone that did something dumb

but knows what he did wrong

A Fool is not dumb because he did it

He is dumb because he knew how it would end

A Fool is dumb on the outside, but he is smart on the inside

is just that he is bond something

something to make him do the wrong doing

Break me free from this prison of thoughts

Break my mind so my thoughts are gone

Break my body so I can't feel or move

and

Break my heart so I can stop being kind to love everybody.