A Friend of Mine


there is a friend of mine

who knows when some thing's wrong

they never think I'm paranoid

or my panic doesn't belong

my other friends don't like them

they say they aren't on my side

but my Anxiety supports me

and together we are allied

sometimes yes, they are too drastic

but mostly I can stand it

and if it ever gets too much

I have ways that I can handle it

now my Anxiety has its own friend

one I can't understand

one that makes me think darker thoughts

they keep canceling things I've planned

they make me view things differently

from how they once appeared

and they point out things to Anxiety

things I "should have feared"

and now Anxiety and their friend

work perfect as a team,

that is, to help me hate myself

and shred my self-esteem.

  • Author: CathBee (Offline Offline)
  • Published: May 17th, 2018 19:52
  • Comment from author about the poem: Anxiety and Depression are what I have been struggling with for so long and I feel like its really good to just get the struggle out and store it somewhere else so this poem is quite important to me as it is the embodiment of the two menaces I have been dealing with. I feel like I have come to terms with the fact that anxiety is normal as everyone has anxiety, I mine is just heightened, which is fine, but depression is the friend anxiety brought to the family reunion and even though they were not given a \\\"+1\\\". Anyway, I hope this doesn\\\'t suck.
  • Category: Sad
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  • R.E

    I like the contrast of then and now.
    I think this is really good and you should keep it up.

    • CathBee

      thank you so much

    • nmurner

      This is so raw.

      I really like how the rhythm sways pleasantly, and the words rhyme in a way I can lean on when I read it. The dark meaning is complemented by that, I think. I like it the same way I like grunge music. Do you know "Lithium" by Nirvana?

      "I'm so happy
      'cause today I found my friends
      they're in my head."

      First thing I thought of reading your poem, and I love that song. Your poem had a real effect on me. Thank you for sharing

      • CathBee

        thank you so much, I am really glad you liked it and I can see what you mean with the song, i hadn't noticed that

      • SLR

        Wow, did you take a trip through my subconscious mind?? I have these same 'friends'. Although they do tend to sabotage any sleep I try to get. Great write. Welcome to MPS!

        • CathBee

          thank you so much and I know what you mean, my " friends" are quite the night owls as well hahaha

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