I try and...

I try and not focus on the feelings I get when I trust someone enough to let them in

let them in

gave them a tour

I try and not focus on the feelings I get when they walk away without making an offer

I try and not think about the men I decided to trust

& just took advantage of me

I try and not think that I should have learned my lesson by now

but they say “don’t have walls”

“just let things flow, lets vibe”

I should’ve known that's just another line, not really taking the time to enjoy waiting in line

fast pass me up

fuck me up and never look back

I’m so done

I’m so dumb

I try and not think that every time I feel something

I’m reminded that I cant afford to feel something

I gotta feel nothing if I wanna make it somewhere

‘Cuz my grades drop like my panties

& I’m panting trying to make deadlines I procrastinated just to let you in

Just to let you get to know me

You got to know me

Now its yeah you “knew me”