My heart feels like its breaking, even though its strapped together.
My head feels like exploding, though I know it’s not forever.
My lungs feel suffocated, as if they’re tangled a web.
My soul is suffocating, being strangled by a thread.
I need meditation, as my sanity begins to BURST.
Feed me medication, to quench my twisted thirst.
Sooth the pain and heart ache, that convinces me I’m CURSED
And relive me of the mind games, let the roles reverse.
Smother me in reassurance, to stop my soul from swelling.
Overdose my broken heart, stop my feelings rebelling.
Overwhelm me with affection, to pamper all my doubts
Suppress the dark emotion, be the perfect spouse.
Re-home my heart my soul and body, nurture each and every inch.
Leave me clean and nice not dusty, without a fearful flinch.
Polish my doubts and sweep up the crusts, correct all of my wrongs.
Build me a home of cushion and candy, a home where I CAN belong.
Cover me in affection and fake the truth, because that hurts the most.
Lie, deceive and fake your love, pretend that we are close. Because,
My heart feels like it’s breaking even though it’s strapped together.
My head feels like exploding, though I know it’s not forever.
Deep down I know this will pass, sanity will sow back into place.
My hormones are roaring, exploring and restoring, the daily battles I face.
~E
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~E (Pseudonym) (
Offline) - Published: June 27th, 2018 09:19
- Comment from author about the poem: This poem reflects the sad feeling of insecurity and the need for love and affection. This poem extracts the thought that another person can heal insecurities, heart ache and self doubt. However, deep down, its only YOU that can control how you choose to value and view things, its a difficult journey but self love has to start somewhere. ~ E
- Category: Sad
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Comments4
Wow out standing messages, so many moments of my life flashed before me.
Thank you for helping me see something, I'll enjoy this self reflection.
I'm glad you could relate to this, thank you for your comment, it really is appreciated! Enjoy your self reflection! ~ E
Truly a gifted write. Not too many can express their self to the fullest as you have here. Hope you find all you need and much more!
Wow thank you, such kind words. I feel with poetry I can express feelings in ways I've never been able too. ~ E
First, I love the first stanza. Great word combos/usage. Second, this describes SO well how so many people think/feel. Third, I LOVE your comment that someone's self love/ self esteem depends on themselves. (Such wisdom from someone so young! LOVE THAT!) Other people can damage our self worth only if we allow them to. We have to fight past those bad feelings and realize that that is their deficiency, not ours! Great write.
Thank you so much, your feedback is always so kind and fills me with confidence. I completely agree, hatefulness it says more about another person then it does about ourselves. I'm glad you enjoyed this write, thanks again. ~ E
It's seldom i read something so profound, especially from the younger generation. It takes a mature attitude to not immediately blame others for our upsets and disappointments.
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Absolutely awesome xx
Why thank you! x
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