Depression

Sometimes I feel lost; with nowhere to go, nowhere to be.

Enveloped by sadness, anger, pain or confusion; I go ahead, stumbling to find the right path - to find me- 

I am broken. Nothing connects. I feel numb.

My overactive, over analytic mind suffocates any motation - leaving me with only frustration. 

My purpose in life is what? 

Living on is crucial, I understand that but - but what? 

I understand I have no excuse.

I am pretty, wealthy, fortunate: with friends, a loving family - so why aren't I happy?

What could possibly be missing? Is it freedom? Experiences? Or Love?

Never have I experienced a connection with someone that has driven me over the edge. I've never felt that's spark, felt wanted or needed.

I crave affection and attention-

I crave joy and (a boy) experiences. Experiences that I can share with someone that gets me, someone that appreciates me, adores me, cares about me.

Someone who can relate to me- both as a friend and a lover.

I crave love and I desire happiness. 

I want to be happy with my face, my body, my life, my friends. 

I know it will take time but I have hope -

- that hope is why I'm still here today-