Act Of Perfection

As time passes new thoughts form in my head

what and who I once was is now dead

I try to change but I am mislead

By the words and actions people do and say

yet I still give them my heart knowing it would get played

I don't understand why I still chose to stay

I don't understand why I keep giving my heart away

What once was a glowing heart

is now broken and falling apart

because of the cruel things people chose to say

and because I took in all in, it the reason I am now this way

I can't keep up this act of perfection

I see it's all a lie when I look at my reflection

it hurts to force a smile and fight back tears

but I guess I have gotten used to it from all of these years

I try to be strong and who you want me to be

but I am not the strong little girl that you expect to see

it's all a lie I have depicted in your head

because the strong fighting me is almost dead