Why did you do this?

You lock us into your world of fear 

Padlock the door and there’s no escape 

Like we are trapped in our own vision of hell 

And someone we love is behind it all 

one day when you didn’t get your own way 

You lashed out like you would normally do 

Pinned me against the wall 

Screaming and shouting 

Throwing anything you could my way 

Your words hurt more than your fists 

It’s just everyone saw the affect your fists had

I was just used to dealing with it by now 

Until the blue flashing lights were seen 

Outside our house again 

The neighbours must have heard 

Again mum protects you

She doesn’t want you to go to prison

She wants you to do well 

Why do you do this to her? 

Constantly breaking her heart

It would happen in fits and spells

One week we would almost look like a functioning family 

Like a tv ad, where everyone smiles 

If only people knew those smiles were a facade 

The masks of illusion hide the scars underneath

The next week would be a blizzard of dispair

Yet there was one day

This day was different to the rest 

A normal kick off with a different reaction 

This time I wasn’t there 

It wasn’t aimed at me 

This time you went too far 

And I couldn’t stop it 

Anger flew from you 

Violence wasn’t enough 

You were plagued with emotions

And no one could stop you 

This time you went for mum 

You did the same routine 

Shouting and screaming and throwing your fists 

But this time you went to the kitchen 

You opened the draw 

And you chased her 

Brother why did you do this? 

We tried to help you through everything 

I always supported you after all that you did to me 

Now you’ve lost everything 

A criminal record 

Lost me as a sister, for the day you turned on our mother 

You lost my respect 

But the worst of all 

Is you hurt the one person who will never turn her back on you 

You might as well have stabbed her that day brother 

Cause you broke her heart so much she’s barely living