Intelligent Conversation.

Goldfinch60



We sit together, our love shining from us,

We talk,

She says something,

We talk about it,

Then she repeats it

As though we had never spoken of it.

I repeat my reply

That she has not remembered.

I say something,

We discuss it,

I mention it again

But she says that I hadn’t told her.

This scenario continues,

Continues throughout the day.

We are talking about one thing,

The context changes,

She talks of something else.

We move on ,

And she goes back

To that which we were talking about,

Or she goes back in her life,

Talking of things she said happened,

But did not.

 

My days are filled with this,

So that when I meet friends,

Or family,

Or acquaintances,

And I can have intelligent conversations

It means so much to me,

It means so much

To talk to people who understand,

Who remember the subject,

And have sound opinions,

No matter what the subject.

 

My life, surrounded by my wife’s dementia,

Is so hard,

And the thing that I am realising

That I miss the most,

Is intelligent conversation.

 

But I still love her.

  • Author: Goldfinch60 (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: July 29th, 2018 01:40
  • Comment from author about the poem: The love will never change or be lost.
  • Category: Reflection
  • Views: 27
  • Users favorite of this poem: Laura🌻, Heartwriter
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  • orchidee

    A sensitive write Gold. Thinking of you both. 🙂

  • Lorna

    It's the letting go that's hard isn't it Andy.... and the feeling guilty if you do. It's such a hard process...... I'm glad you have friends and family to talk to. There's nothing wrong with wanting to live.... she's going where things don't hurt her.

    • Goldfinch60

      Thank you Lorna, you are right she is getting further and further into her own world where she feels safe.

    • Michael Edwards

      She must have been one hell of a lady before the tragedy struck and she is so lucky to have one hell of a guy to continue loving and caring for her

      • Goldfinch60

        She was she could light up a room just by walking into it, she can do the same now to some extent as the smile is always on her face but the words are now confused.
        Thank you Michael for your very kind words

      • dusk arising

        Whilst visiting my son many moons ago i met my ex mum-in-law who conversed exactly as you describe today. For me two days of this was truly frustrating. Your love and faith is so strong yet you are only human. Your faith tells you you are created in God's image therefore any failings you may feel you succumb to cannot be an evil.
        I wish for you strength to persevere, yet be gentle with your soul.

        • Goldfinch60

          Thank you da, I will persevere and with people like you and others on this site I will stay strong and come through this glitch in my life.

        • Laura🌻

          Andy,

          I sincerely agree with all the comments made! You are a beautiful man! Be kind to yourself! Love to you and Joyce!

          ~Laura~

          • Goldfinch60

            Thank you Laura, you are so kind and am very grateful for your comments.

            Andy

          • Heartwriter

            We never know what tomorrow brings. Just remember the yesterday's. The time when she could recall and continue in conversation. Thanks for allowing us to be a part of your hard journey. That's what friends are for. I know the reason now why I call you Goldie.😓

            • Goldfinch60

              Thank you so much Kat, those words mean so much to me, you are most kind.



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