Rebuilding outside and in

Poetic Dan

They have told me it needs to be rebuilt

That my body has decided to eat it self

A form of skin cancer that just won't heal

Yesterday I thought I was just getting advice

Instead he spoke some words I couldn't recite

Told me to lay down under the most intense lights

Stuck a needle in my nose that felt like I'm in total recall

Before I know it I can smell my own burning flesh

The job is done and he's telling me what will happen next

They will take some skin from behind my ear or neck

This won't be easy as it's been left far too long

My attitude of just letting things happen didn't help this one

I'm now in a rut knowing I did this all to myself

The stress I create in all the decisions I make

As I sit and write down all the emotions in me

Nothing is clear I don't understand a dam thing

Is this what I get for always wishing on my own demise

From a teenager, to a divorce with half my parental light

I stress my self out with deeper than deeper thoughts

Once the brain has been so low its so easy to go

As I keep hearing the sentence to rebuild or reconstruct

It feels like I've been fighting this all of my life

So now I surrender and forgiving my past inner thoughts

This life is mine to live and I need punish myself no more

  • Author: Poetic Dan (Offline Offline)
  • Published: January 8th, 2019 07:12
  • Category: Unclassified
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  • Goldfinch60

    Such painful words, you have seen a way forward though so move forward in the new freedom that you have found.

    • Poetic Dan

      I can only hope my words stay as actions and I don't go back to my procrastinations

    • poetboy123

      Dan, I am extremely sorry to hear that you're not doing well, but I also can't help but admiring the positivity you tap into when running into a wall. It's just another wall for you to overcome, I wish you the best.

      • Poetic Dan

        Thank you buddy, its our life to live the way we do and its poetry like yours my friend that keep me leaping these walls. My post today is in thought of some of your work that keeps my flame burning bright. How you are well and all the next four this year!



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