The excitement is within me,
I know it is wrong,
Why should I feel like this,
Happy that she has gone,
Gone away for a week.
She has changed so much,
Dementia has taken her,
Taken her from me
Into her own world,
Leaving me to work so hard,
So hard to deal with her problems,
The problems she now has.
The normality of her life has gone,
Gone so she can do almost nothing,
Lost in her own mindless world,
Leaving me to pick up the pieces,
Day after day,
Night after night,
Non-stop working,
Non-stop worrying.
The love of my life has gone,
Disappeared into her demented mind,
Leaving me to struggle,
A struggle that gets harder,
Harder every single day.
She is away for a week,
I can relax,
But she will be back soon,
And the struggle will start again,
Start again – until when?
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Author:
Goldfinch60 (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: My wife has gone into a care home for a week for Respite Care, it is hard to say but it gives me some relief from trying to live two lives at the same time. I had a full nights sleep last night for the first time in over two months since she last went into respite care.
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A sensitive write Gold. We were glad when our manager went on holiday, but that's a different situation! More like 'While the cat's away, the mice will play'.
A friend's father is in a Care Home permanently. He is 97, though my friend has lived in his own place for years now.
Thanks Orchi.
Yes a friend of ours' husband was in a Care Home for several years, he died not that long ago and it was a relief to his wife, which is a sad thing to say but I can understand how she feels.
This is such a sad sad read - I do hope you have a restful week away from your much loved wife.
Thank you Michael, respite care can work wonders for me.
Thanks again UNCLE ANDY for another very moving POEM. It prepares us for similar should we ever have to face it. God tells us "His Grace enables us to bear all things" You have spoken lovingly of being with JOYCE and GOD also provides respite to enable you to gain the Physical & Spiritual strength to lovingly recieve Joyce back again ! True Love is victoriuos in all situations. It enables ANGELA & I to rejoice even though we are 11,500 miles apart. However we can phone & write & because it is 2019 talk face to face on Skype everyday.
Every Blessing & Love to you BOTH ~
BRIAN & ANGELA 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡
Love KF ~ perfect song for the Poem ~ B & A 🧡
Thank you A and B. I must admit that my feelings about God are being highly tested at the moment.
Blessings to both your wife and yourself. Living those two lives I feel has put you in duress and the heartaches you are suffering seeing you wife like this. I wish, and pray for you both to have easier lives. A wonderful write, my friend.
Thank you for your kind words Kevin, much appreciated.
To the river Goldfinch where peace and the spiritual you rest and re-set your mind.
Yes the river will be there for me.
Last night Jazz was there for me at Pershore Jazz Club. You would have been in your element as there were two sax players there,
John Hallam - Tenor, baritone and clarinet;
Art Theman - tenor and soprano;
with piano, bass and drums. They were superb.
Goldi my heart goes out to you in the problems of tending dementia - -- it must be such a challenge and the verse states plainly that those caring for dire disability have to take rest. Hoping your week will bring you pleasant sleep and more relaxation dear friend.
Thank you Fay, yes it is hard work and becomes harder on a daily basis.
prayers going up and out to your family.
Thank you so very much psychofemale, so kind.
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