She is getting worse,
Why are you hiding from us?
Where the hell are you?
God, are you not there?
Meant to be the God of love,
But not there for us.
Her dementia wins,
Beats God into submission,
Have you lost your strength?
If you are still there
Why do you not fill her mind?
Where the hell are you?
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Author:
Goldfinch60 (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: Just a rant in 5-7-5 format about my wife's dementia and the absence of the God in her life whose praises she has sung about for all her life.
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This is terrible for you. An awful cry out of anger and disappointment.
Years ago i found myself doing a similar thing for my beautiful daughter who was born severely mentally handicapped and autistic. My rant was heartfelt and my faith in a benevolent god died.
Nowadays i hold a spiritual faith similar to your own.
More and more are coming to realise that the god of christianity is not the nice guy we were taught about and the church itself is a questionable establishment.
Heartfelt sympathy for you in this painful part of your life Goldfinch.
Thank you d a, it is hard but as you know my Spiritual Faith is resilient.
If this helps at all, the Psalmists also have rants at God, of sorts, if contained within certain language. They are not all praisey Psalms.
Somehow they (David did not write ALL the Psalms) find a way through, even in Old Testament days. It's said we have much more in New Testament days
Of course it's OK to believe, for who seem to 'have it all together', no suffering, etc.
Thank you Orchi, yes there are rants in the bible.
Super comment from Tepo - I find it so hard to imagine the despair and anguish in your circumstances for someone who believes - a real test to the faith.
Thank you Michael, the people on this site are so very understanding it is a pleasure to be amongst them.
If I could pop over and give you a man hug, I would do just that my friend...
This is one of the most powerful and emotionally charged pleas I have read in a very long time...and penned so cleverly too...
I shall refine my embu later and include both you and your dear wife in it and my thoughts..... Neville
You are so kind Neville and your comments are very much appreciated.
I am not kind, I am but me, but my comments are given freely and are truly meant my friend... N
Thanks for caring & sharing Uncle ANDY ~ We pray for you and Your Beloved Joyce every Day that you will both have PEACE of MIND. When I face similar situations with older freinds of my Parents who were one Stalwarts for the Lord ~ Teachers ~ Pastors ~ Missionaries etc ~ But now unable to comprehend and unable to Pary ~ but in a Paradoxical Way ~ LOVE TO BE PRAYED WITH & FOR ~ Amen. Joyce is still the Lovely & Loving Girl you married and GOD does not change and our Faith in Him should never waver. As CHRISTIANS we all have our Cross to BEAR bu yours (and Joyce's) is a particularly difficult one 24/7. As I have said before the Agony & Ecstasy in your POEMS gives Angela & I the Courage and Spiritual Strength to face together~ with GOD ~ whatever fate might throw at us ~ todays Poem will help us when We too face lifes tempests.
Every Blessing & Love to you both
Thank you for being you & baring & sharing your heart !
Love & Peace of mind ~ BRIAN & ANGELA 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡
That caring will never fail . Thank you for your wonderful comments A and B.
your pain, just like 'dusk arising' and mine in case of my daughter, are all very personal.
I have offered mine for my daughters well being, but there are no takers.
I have challenged HIM to a game of chance, but all I can hear is HIS thunderous laughter
And then I realize is unfair of me to additionally burden HIM with my pain as well, and so I must silently go it alone.
And so my friend, I wish that you and all her loved ones may find the strength to comfort her and that a cure may be found soon to cure her.
Very true Suresh, that pain we feel is unique to each one of us and yes we must travel that path alone and hope that our strength keeps us going.
This was very controlled but powerful rant my friend.
I did shed a tear but won't we all in the end
Thank you for sharing this
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