I sit here and look back,
Look back at our wonderful life,
Our wonderful life together.
In each others arms for so many years,
Those times of joy walking the Dales
Where life was so green,
And our wonderful life was before us
Travelling the country both north and south.
The happiness being with our children,
Enhanced by our grandchildren.
Such wonderful times
Until that day,
That day when that word came,
Came into our lives,
Dementia!
All things changed
As that word attacked my lover,
Taking her brain and memories,
Taking her thoughts and feelings
Into her own world,
Her world where no one can enter.
The spark of love is there,
Her love for me.
My love for her will never fail,
But my lover has gone,
Changed into a person
Where context means nothing,
Where mood swings exist
That were never there.
I now live two lives
Doing everything for her.
Where once we shared our tasks
It happens no more,
Her mind has gone to another place,
A place where she can do nothing,
And I have to do it all.
It has been so long since normality
Where I could do things for me,
My strength of body
And my strength of mind
Is weakening,
I try not to show it to her
But each day it gets harder.
I am trapped in her world,
Her world of dementia,
But the one thing that will not fail
Is my love for her.
My love for her will go on
Even if it gets to that day,
Which may be with us soon,
Where she does not know me,
But I will love her still.
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Author:
Goldfinch60 (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: My wife's dementia is getting so much worse and each day it is harder for me to deal with it.
- Category: Love
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Comments7
although I am lost for words, I think you are amazing and the love you have for your dear wife is a shining example of that most precious and sacred emotion.....
You are most kind Neville and I appreciate it so very much.
Thank you for sharing your pain, I admire you more every day. Not just for how you write but love that still shines from you is something I look up to, there's not much in this world I do.
Thank you for being unperfectly perfectly you, I know words can not comfort you but many are here to listen with you.
Thank you again for morning tear in my tea.
Thank you Dan, most kind.
The deep love you have and have had with your sweetheart still shines through every hard line of your daily caring my friend. You are a star .
Your words are much appreciated Fay, thank you so very much.
A poignant write Gold. Thinking of you both.
Thanks Orchi.
If I ever get a wish...
Thank you Andrew, I would have the same wish.
If she could, she would tell you -
SHE LOVES YOU FOREVER
Very few will ever claim to have had the love you shared
Thank you Suresh, that love will never die.
Thanks for Sharing & Caring : Uncle ANDY : ANGELA here 11am Saturday : just enjoying the Winter SUN 14C = 57F I hear its very very hot in Europe & UK !
These occasional LOVE LAMENTS you write about JOYCE are very very poignant ! Pardoxically they cause me to c ry for Her increasingly *Shut off Life* but also to smile for the True Love you have for her which increases rather than diminishes. As I have said before it so encourages Brian & I to believe whatever the FUTURE holds for us our TRUE LOVE will overcome any DIFFICULTY Life puts in our PATH ! Now abides these three Faith - Hope - Love : but the greatest of these is alwys LOVE ! Love the Choral Music : very very solemn & very very apt : Tears of Lament !
Blessings & Peace & Love to YOU & JOYCE
Youras as always : Love ANGELA XOXOX
So kind Angela, I am sure that your love for each other will never fail even under telling circumstances.
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