Goldfinch60

My New Life.



That time has arrived,

That time when my New Life is with me.

The change has happened,

On my own in the house,

Our home is now mine.

My wife, my loved one is no longer here,

Moved into a home

Where there care is supreme.

My care was starting to fail,

I was becoming beaten in my life,

Each day was getting harder

As her dementia controlled her,

Leaving me to do all for her.

It had to be done,

Now I am in the house alone.

 

My New Life is with me,

That life where I am back,

Back being able to be myself,

Doing the things I want to do.

Yes I will miss her being with me,

But I am used to that,

My lover has not been with me,

Not been with me for a long time.

Yes, I am alone in the house

But I am not lonely.

I have music to listen to,

Instruments to reacquaint myself with.

I have words to write,

Art to see,

Choirs to join.

At last I can see my friends,

Much ignored but now I am back.

I might be on my own

But able to do things,

Do things that I was unable to do.

My New Life is with me

 

Yes I love her,

That will never change,

And I will see her,

But her care comes first.

The care where she is

Is wonderful,

So much better than I could give.

In all the sadness of the past

New light has been given,

Given to us both,

That light will join and become one

As our lives travel into eternity.

Comments9

  • orchidee

    A sensitive write Gold. It's not quite the same, but I was reading of the apostles/disciples being 'glad to suffer shame and oppression for the name of Christ'.

  • Michael Edwards

    I can feel the emotions in this sensitive write - my thoughts are with you both.

    • Goldfinch60

      Thank you Michael, much appreciated.

    • Suresh

      Recognition and adjustments, are a key part of being human. It doesn't diminish our love and care we hold.

      • Goldfinch60

        So very true Suresh, thank you for your comprehending insight.

      • dusk arising

        Brave new world of a most deserving traveller of life's highways, byeways, sidetracks and of course - waterways.

        • Goldfinch60

          Yes d a, those places are still there and still to be explored - there are always new roads to travel with hope and joy.

        • Fay Slimm.

          Caring as much as we are able will be enough and you dear friend deserve a new life where you can feel more free to come and go while your dear Joyce is being cared for now by those who are better able - - adjustment when grasped brings its own rewards and here is wishing you lots of good musical opportunities again.

          • Goldfinch60

            Thank you Fay, | now know that Joyce is being cared for very well and my life is easier and those opportunities are there for me to move on. I took one of those opportunities yesterday and joined a new choir.

          • ANGELA & BRIAN

            Reading between the lines ~ UNCLE ANDY ~ Angela & I feel our petitons to the Creator ~ for You & Joyce have NOT gone unheard ! You now have the best of both Worlds ! JOYCE is content and has the 24/7 TLC she needs ~ so you have no more GUILT ~ and YOU ~ who has worked for & with JOYCE for so long ~ Have your peace of mind and sufficient degree of freedom to live again knowing that in all things YOU ALWAYS DID YOUR VERY VERY BEST for JOYCE and still continue to do so ! You are a great example & inspiration to ANGELA & I and will continue to be so !

            Blessings & Peace & Joy to You BOTH
            Love ANGELA & BRIAN 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡
            We love the PATETIQUE ~ EMPATHETIC

            • Goldfinch60

              Thank you A and B, yes that love will always be there between Joyce and I but we now have a more enlightened path to travel.

            • Andrew Charles Forrest

              God bless you Andy... My post today is for you...
              Nothing else to say

              • Goldfinch60

                Thank you so much Andrew for your words and that song. Very much appreciated.

              • Christina8

                Full of emotion as you go through this transition in your life! I am glad you can both see her and do the things you enjoy. God bless!

                • Goldfinch60

                  Thank you Christina, the way ahead for both of us now has been smoothed out - all will be well.

                • Laura🌻

                  Andy,

                  This emotive write is exactly what I envisioned for you and Joyce!
                  While reading your poem, I could feel a heavy weight being lifted ever so gently...but necessary!
                  I’m so happy for you!

                  My love to Joyce and to you!

                  ~Laura~

                  • Goldfinch60

                    Thank you Laura, you are most kind.



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