There is that vibration in our voice, a frequency of "I will not be ignored"
It shakes you right down to the core, sadly mine is still sore
I got this first message, 15 years ago with my son
He did not just scream, he would go through night terrors too
Little did I know it was actually my energy reflected
I took my lesson and saw the information was free
The lectures and books I never thought I'd read
To become a behaviourist and see dogs know the score
I'm more messed up but I'm honest to my core
I don't loss it, unless scared or feel I'm being cornered
I still unable to shake the history of my bodys early warning
I never knew my baby's cry for food or a hug would keep triggering my scaring
As I try not to pass on the knowing and unknowingly cycle of childhood traumas
I am truly grateful to be tested again in this new partnership
As my last attempt at marriage gave me two beautiful kids
I was to damaged for a husband & wife to keep growth
I have made it clear this time around, my issue are open and I don't mess about
Each time I lose the plot, we both try understand
I'm having the same melt down, and really don't want to scream
I only think I can do it better alone, because my programming tells me
I think love is not having control, but yet knowing you are still responsible
Everything just needs time, space then good food and a hug
Life is only comforting, as we wish to make it ourselves
Even in the luxury of blessing, we can be suffering as well
At the beginning and the end, we all need that help
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Poetic Dan (
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- Comment from author about the poem: This has been one of the most therapeutic writes for me, I slept so well after. Knowing all I am got me here, finding a crew that accepts me for me and all trying to bring out the best in each. I used to think we all lived in our illusions, now I think it is really that everyone is broken! Thank you for helping me heal and be open
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in fine form yet again, Mr P Dan. Colouring in and shading out the darkness of your not so picture-perfect comfortably numbed life you have, Dealing with many subjects as each line revs up to a speed that only the best can surpass. Great stuff..!!
It's been a rough week my friend but I know there is always light at the end!
Always appreciate your time & hope you are as comfortable as you can be with the tests life keeps throwing at you too.
May our words change our paths, or at least be left to connect with any wondering souls.
That darkness in your life has been overcome, it may come back occasionally and need to be dealt with but I am sure it is becoming less and less frequent as your new life with lover, little one and dogs takes you into a wonderfully bright and happy future.
It definitely never left my friend, just forever learning to keep using it become more than I was before.
It's certainly getting fast and fast, with less time to have any regrets.
Really hope all is well as can be your end too!
Yes, you have dealt well with children, as well as dogs.
Can always do better! Thanks for your time as always
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