Why can’t i feel love ?

I wonder through life not knowing,

how to feel and how to say,

What is on my mind these coming days,

because I don’t know what love feels like ,

or why it decides to run away,

ive never been good with feelings,

but i want to feel love, 

and be with someone forever. 

But how ever hard i try,

something gets in my way or im too shy,

but now i see, 

that it was just me all along,

ruining my chances at success,

but I just don’t want to be rejected or depressed,

so I don’t know what to do,

to get the thing I always wanted,

because i keep ruining my chances,

and thats not what i wanted to do.

So why in these desperate times,

that everytime i try to think,

of someting to say ,

i just get shy and walk away,

because i want to love,

But I don’t know how.