Lexbry

I hated that moment when

I hated that moment when...

Deep down...

I knew... 

I had been tossed into the rapids of a beating heart without a float...

No chance of survival...

No chance of redemption for my shattered soul...

What clued me in...

Maybe my stone cold frozen heart...

Maybe my tired new life...

Maybe the hell of silence I was in...

Maybe the reflections I had from before...

That moment before...

I had been tossed into the rapids of a beating heart without a float...

Is what clued me in...

My frozen heart wasn’t present then... 

But, the beauty of my smile instead...

I wasn’t forever alone...

Grasping for someone’s hands...

I wasn’t fighting for the respect I deserved...

Yet never received...

 

Deep down...

I wish...

I could go back to the real me...

The me who could stand rock solid during danger...

The me who knew who my friends were...

The me who had respect from all...

The me who stepped up for others...

 

Sadly...

I owe you...

For filling up my life with...

Scars...

Painful choices...

Betrayal...

And a myriad of emotions...

 

Thank you, because of you...

Your betrayal...

Has been a game changer...

For my new life...

And the new me...

 

 

 

Comments3

  • Maxine Smith

    What doesn’t kill, makes you stronger.

    A good read.

  • Goldfinch60

    That new you is so much stronger and will go on in life a much better person.

    Andy

  • dusk arising

    Wow, so much passion for the negative in your post. Is that all there is?
    You'll find positivity is better all round and wow do you feel all the better for it.
    Don't stay down, the world is waiting to smile back at your smile.



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