bhoover56

Depression

Another day starts again with you in it

I don’t have the strength to even begin it

I don’t have the gumption to get out of bed

With all of the insults you put in my head

 

You tell me I’m worthless, you tell me I’m lame

Don’t have an original thought to my name

You tell me I’m useless, you call me a tool

You say you don’t know whom I’m hoping to fool

 

I wear a brave face so that nobody knows

I hide all the pain so that none of it shows

I’m totally hopeless, you tell me again

And so I believe you. What good am I then?

 

I look at myself and I only feel shame

I know it’s not me, since you’re always to blame

By saying I’m helpless you’ve crippled my soul

You’ve torn out my faith and I’ll never be whole

 

I’m left in the dark with my doubts and my fears

With troubles and worries and those countless tears

The devil’s and demon’s torments never cease

I’ve given up hope that I’ll ever find peace

 

Down here in the dark it’s lonely and cold

And it feels much worse when the shivers take hold

I’m shaking and screaming for someone to care

I’m needing a friend but there’s nobody there

 

Some scars on my arms might be just what I need

I’ll try it sometime just to see if I bleed

Then maybe the demons will leave me alone

They’ll see I can torture myself on my own

 

There must be a way for this pain to subside

How bad would it be if I just up and died?

Drastic, I know, but it seems like the thing

To end all the pain with the peace it would bring

Comments6

  • aDarkerMind

    the truth of real pain. a pain we are given, even though we don't deserve it; hang in there, it will come...one day.

  • Liam Power

    I like the meter and the rhyme. Gives a sense of relentlessness to the depression.

  • Doggerel Dave

    Walk (or run) away.

  • Goldfinch60

    Good emotive write, I do hope that you can come out of your current life and into the wonderful life that is around us all.

    Welcome to MPS.

  • orchidee

    A thoughtful write B. Getting out of bed is one step, to start the day.

  • L. B. Mek

    when you choose to write than slice, you're rewarding your own fight: to survive
    when you choose to share your pain with others, then you've taken a step
    when your momentum falters, as everyone's does: come back
    to these very words and remind yourself, what your great mind is capable of...
    I congratulate your choice to fight, than surrender and wish you all the best for the future!
    try to remember, however crippling the situation
    one way or another: this too shall pass and will one day be your past
    you need only survive today, to escape into your tomorrow's
    (one gifted day, at a time)



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