From my mind to the sea
She help me find my hearts harmony
To exit my thoughts that make me, me! The place that's kept all the records to mix up my beat, where the animalistic spirit has constantly been on patrol in its streets.
Getting shown for a moment how the body mind and soul can truly work as one, but not before we went through more than I'll even be able to spit off my tongue....
3 hours before this I tangled with my inner know it all! Wanting to just shut down, to convince myself that this was not worth doing for any rational sense, I just find comfort in warmth and the cold is not really anyone's friend.
I knew I was scared and my mind was going to do this right up to the moment we arrived, before then I had to ride the waves we could make up in more marvellous conundrums.
The point in time came, walking across the stones I was ready to take this leap, my energy was buzzing, hers completely grounded. Asked to remove my shoes, sitting with gentle music that soothes, yet with words that still sadly moves as I try to not think about what I'm about to do.
A few minutes of warm ups and my first challenge hits, I'm bear foot and it's now doesn't feel right to put my shoes on, it would stop the flow that we had already created!
Running on the spot, jumping up and down with a few other movements later she say right take my hand!
We cross over into the next bay, my feet hit the water and its already to cold, the mind starts to bolt yet my body just keeps on going forwards. The tingling in my toes now stopped me in my tracks unable to handle anymore pressure I want to run and not look back, asking to go down lower felt like a perfect heart attack.
This moment would not stop or go away the animal inside couldn't fight or flight, as even the tears wouldn't help us survive the only way out was to let this all collide into the safety I have inside.
Yet down in that depths, upon my chest I struggled to find a single breath. No sound could be made, no pattern of thoughts, just a soul in front of me, showing me how to break down that inner wall. I still don't know how but together it did, finding my grounding in that moment still brings tears as I write this.
As like a flash of lightning,I went from "I swear I'm about to die" to "I've fucking got this!" Able to not only throw water over my face but dunk fully under (twice) and come up with enough energy to break the sound barrier that kept me in place, to then do what I have never been able to do, no matter what sounds or breathing I used.
Walk back bear footed across all the stones to begin the next part of this journey and I can honestly say, I was not ready for it and still trying to figure it all out..
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Poetic Dan (
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- Comment from author about the poem: I did this on Thursday and I'm slowly recovering, I'm doing this for many reason but lately I've been triggered by customers triggers and the only way for me to stay in my centre. Is to actually find it myself, not just write about it and let nature tell me when to be it but authentically feel it! For some one that lives heavily in the mind, this process was a challenge and the biggest part was the aftermath that's still hard to find comprehendible words as this truly came from a subconscious world!
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Think back of the challenges that you have conquered and you know that you have the strength of character to conquer this one with your partner and child waiting there to be with you forever in your new wonderful world.
Andy
Ha well too conquer this I will give my best but never before hand I wanted to achieve something so bad! Just need to keep picturing it!
Always appreciated my friend
This is very expressive ! An engaging read ,
I’m assuming your scared of the sea / water
It’s helpful to feel grounded ... fear definitely ungrounds us
This is called cold water therapy and it is a way of helping me continue to regulate my breathing as this is all in the mind and its after that I really struggle.
Thanks for your time and read always deeply appreciated.
Have a wonderful weekend
I’ve never heard of that before . That’s ok 🙂 I hope you have a nice weekend too
Finding your centre is important . It’s sometimes difficult to do that isn’t it ....
But we can find a way . Meditation can help
You will get through, Dan: You have insight and reason - you know what is going on.
Take very good care of yourself.
Thanks buddy, I plan on renewal of myself!
'Way to go, Dan.
I'm sure , given your level of awareness, you will succeed.
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