A Heart’s Tug of War

Accidental Poet



A man of strong morals

I believe I am

Of work ethics

Earning my keep you understand

 

Over many years

I’ve had to learn

Doing the right thing

Not always what you yearn

 

But time a great teacher

With age comes maturity

Through an honest heart

Comes inner security

 

An ailing father

Who wants to die at home

A daughter and son

Hesitate to pick up the phone

 

Do the responsible thing?

Or last wishes to respect

A decision must be made

A wrong choice to reflect

 

Wait too long his Angels will come

And take him to his final home

But how will we feel

With any regrets we own

 

Some choices are never easy

In how one enters Heaven’s door

Deciding what’s right and wrong

A heart’s tug of war

 

Copyright © Accidental Poet 2021

  • Author: Sharon\'s Poet (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: May 11th, 2021 07:01
  • Category: Family
  • Views: 41
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  • Neville


    A title most fitting for one hell of a dilemma for sure ..

    and now you have got me wondering whether this fine poem is autobiographically inspired, or the product of the authors imagination and muse ..........

    whatever the case, an emotionally charged and much enjoyed end product emerged ..................

    Neville

    • Accidental Poet

      Thanks for the read and comment Nev. Well, I\'m sorry to say that your first guess would be correct. My father has been suffering from Alzheimer\'s for I\'m guessing about 4 to 5 years now. Though my sister and I only realized it about 2 years ago. My mother past from the disease in 2008, and although we don\'t have a doctors acknowledgement that he has it, we know he does because we both live with him. We are both divorced and he will be 95 in July. Everyday we see the slow decline of my father\'s health and willingness to live. I believe he\'s just waiting to die. I think he\'s hoping that some morning he won\'t wake up. And realistically, as cruel as it sounds it would be the best thing for him. He\'s very depressed. All his friends have passed, and he just wants to go himself. He doesn\'t want to go to the hospital, I think he maybe knows his time is near and he\'s always said he doesn\'t want to go to a nursing home and die. He wants to die at home.
      So my sister and I are stuck between getting him into a hospital or keeping at home taking care of him the best we can and respect his last wish. We literally are pulled in both directions at the same time. I think he\'ll end up in an ambulance ride to the hospital against his will. But it will be out of our hands at that point. Sucks getting old.

      • Neville



        I am so sorry to hear this my friend .. my wife and I were in a very similar position last year when her Father a retired C of E priest and a very gentle gentleman passed away at 90 years from the very same unrelenting form of dementia ... Such a cruel and callous condition .. My thoughts are truly with both You and your sister at this most difficult and stressful time .........

        Neville

        • Accidental Poet

          Thank you Neville, most appreciated. ; ) AP

        • John Prophet

          Very well stated..

        • orchidee

          A poignant write AP.

        • Goldfinch60

          So very meaningful AP.

          Andy

          • Accidental Poet

            And difficult decisions ahead. Thanks Andy. Appreciate the read and comment. ; )



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