However hard I try, its just not enough.
However much I give, the fight is always tough.
Your words cut me deep,
and I am hurting, inside I weep.
Can't you ever be nice to me?
Don't you understand, can't you see?
The constant telling me I should or shouldn't,
the pointing fingers saying I couldn't.
Why is it I'm such a fail to you?
Its never enough, whatever I do.
I'm happy in my place,
I'm happy in my space.
I work so very hard, why do you not care?
I've been through hell these last few years!
I've been in a war for so long,
I cant take anymore, its just so wrong.
I miss that endless love of my mum and dad
I miss that safe place I always had.
Now from the ones I have loved forever,
are telling me I dont do enough, no never.
I am not sociable, I am old before my time...
I dont deserve this pain, I've committed no crime.
All I've ever really done is love you wholeheartedly,
alway putting you first, every time before me.
Now I expect that same love back,
I just feel your always on the attack.
Defending others in my place,
Shouting awful things to my face.
I've given all I can, loved you from my core,
If there's nothing nice to say, then please dont say any more.
- Author: sandra ( Offline)
- Published: June 29th, 2021 10:55
- Category: Unclassified
- Views: 18
Comments3
This is a heartfelt cry for help. I hope you the author can hear that cry yourself.
I am happy in my place
I am happy in my space
Two very important lines there. You are a happy soul until somebody drags you down. Again and again it seems.
Dear poet, if this is your life at the moment, I am sad for you. We were not born into this life to be unhappy. We all have inbuilt joy and should be free to express our joy to the world and one another.
This is partner abuse. Get out.
I have a friend who has been going through this abuse by her partner and has eventually had the strength to throw him out, she has become so much happier as if released from the chains holding her down. I do hope that you can find that strength so that you can get into a good place in your life.
Andy
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