Goodbye !

If  I say goodbye to this world

am I really leaving ?

I’m just so tired of it all

Especially the thieving

People can steal your heart

Watch you as you bleed

take whatever they want

no second thought to what you need

I guess i had it coming

For all the mistakes I made

I hope you know I’m sorry

never intended it to be this way

I struggled each and every day

sleepless nights I lie awake

my mind filled with all these thoughts

would pray for them to go away

Oh god if your listening

god can you hear me

free me from this pain

take me to heaven make this easy

I was hoping he would listen

Hoped my wish would come true

but instead all I see are grey skies

Instead of seeing sky blues

they always say keep that head up

things will get better

I tried to believe it many times

even with change of weather

Couldn’t quite be consistent

Never had consecutive days

Where I would smile and think

How lucky am I to be alive today

Tried to hold onto the good

tried to  let go of the bad

But it always pulled me back in

reminds me of what I used to have

And what I had is what I lost

It’s no ones fault but my own

I could sit here and lie

But is there really any point anymore

I wish I could take it back

shake myself out of it if I could

What the hell was I thinking

You were always nothing but good

maybe that was the problem

You being the angel of mine

Self sabotage was always my thing

I guess I’m just a devil in disguise

It’s something that weighs on me heavy

you’ll never know how much my heart breaks

my shoulders are almost finished

Don’t know how much more I can take

my heart is on low

it’s startling to come apart

You the beauty Me the beast

Those roses pedals falling in the dark

if I could tell you I love you

And see your face again

I’d tell you everything

how you were my best friend

That I’ll always be with you

And you shouldn’t blame yourself

please don’t break down

Don’t keep your heart on the shelf

Just remember one thing

and that is even if we are not together

That even after this life

It’ll always be forever