Guilt Is There.

Goldfinch60



She is always there,

There in my life,

Now a star shining on me,

That love between us so strong.

But now there is something else,

It is a feeling of guilt,

Guilty at just thinking of me.

I have come to a good place,

A good place in my life

But a twinge of guilt is there.

I should be doing things for her,

But she is not there in person,

Only in my mind and heart.

She will always be there,

There will be nobody else.

I still meet OUR friends

But on my own,

And this guilt at my own pleasure hurts.

I know in time it will pass

And I will be stronger,

Strong in that love between us

That will be there for eternity,

And the guilt I feel will be gone,

But that guilt is there,

There at the moment,

And is hard to lose.

  • Author: Goldfinch60 (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: August 28th, 2021 01:15
  • Comment from author about the poem: I am in a good place in my life since the passing of my wife 20 months ago and am feeling a guilt about being in that place without my lover with me.
  • Category: Sad
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Comments3

  • orchidee

    A fine write Gold.
    If at times it is false guilt, is that more difficult to handle than true guilt?
    Bit psychological this time of morning.
    Quite a long word there too, but not as long as hippo.... I dunno the rest of the word! You knows it.

    • Goldfinch60

      Thank you Orchi, true false guilt is harder to handle.

      Andy

    • dusk arising

      Andy, what is love where is love? Love gave you the affection and caring to lovingly look after you ailing wife until it became to dangerous. Not a chore, but an extension of real love. So now she is no longer here, but love goes on. You know her love for you is steadfast and your faith tells you she has presence in the afterworld of spirits. A place where she sends her love to you. Do you think she would like to see you unhappy? i'm sure you'd agree she wouldn't. I'm sure it will please her to see you being a viable happy human being and sharing your joys of croquet and other happy times.
      You guilt is a natural response and brings forth questions you will never be able to answer.
      You are a respected friendly human being who gives worth to the world you live in.... thats plain to see from the life you place before us in your poetry.
      Hold your mettel, hold your head up, live on Andy. The alternative is not for you, you're too good.

      • Goldfinch60

        d a I am overwhelmed by your words, thank you so very much for your wonderful response. I agree that the love Joyce and I have for each other will never die and I know that she would want to see me happy. I am there but and this guilt is slowly fading and that all will be fine in my life and even better when I am back with Joyce, but I am not joining her yet I have my own life to enjoy.

        Thank you oncce again d a.

        Andy

      • myself and me

        A comforting hug from me.

        • Goldfinch60

          Thank you so much mandm, much appreciated.



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