I'm sorry for my insecurities and driving you insane. I'm sorry for believing your love for me has always been in vain. I'm sorry I get so stuck on thinking you look at me with disgust, because I view myself as not as pretty as you desire me to be and my big ass and gut making me feel ugly and worthless, shrouding both of us in shame. I've come to realize my fears, distraught anguish and pain is pushing you away all the same. I do not know how to get past these surfaces because my love for you runs so deep. I'm a fool lost in an abyss of senseless worry and a head full of your games. I love you like a woman lost and clueless on how to regain the love that was never lost just my heart scared to death I'll lose you, my eternal flame. Please forgive me even if there's no chance for us I'll always love you and regret I couldn't be as strong as I proclaim.
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Author:
Tess Stafford (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: I wrote this for my partner of 16 years after surrender and sanity was restored and regained. In my quiet moment of senseless blame I realized my side of sorry was just as much of cause of things perceived,projected, and carelessly tossed between us. I immensely respect when someone can share their privacy openly and with such honesty that it touches me in a way, a camaraderie with another soul, inspired me to give back this beautiful feeling, no regrets, no shame.
- Category: Forgiveness
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Very strong emotive words Sparrow, I hope that love and re-joining of happiness and understanding return.
Welcome to MPS.
Thank you and of course. I get out and purge my feelings through my words is all. Very healing and self reflective for me.
This sure is good in my book .. and welcome to MPS my friend .... N
Thank you Neville, I appreciate your feedback and warm welcome. It took me a long, long time to get the guts to do something like this and good or bad I hope I don't see me regretting it. Sincerely, Tess
I certainly both doubt & hope you will ever regret it my friend .............. Write on .. Neville
Good and expressive ) there is always a reason for our insecurities and sometimes it’s difficult to see beyond that , sometimes . But our insecurities are not who we are .., we are more than our feelings which sometimes lie to us . Like believing we are not good enough .. why aren’t we …
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