Have you ever felt yourself slipping from reality
your mind in a state of perpetual darkness,
immersed beneath a sea of words
refusing to part your lips
unable to express, well... anything...
I've got this darkness eating me alive
every thought over analysed...
all actions rehearsed in the mind
completely alone, yet well and truly surrounded
overthinking... over-killing myself...
Separated from reality by walls of our creation
constructed in long-forgotten phrases
remaining unspoken by our tight lips
leading pain down the path of internal agony,
without the ability to control our emotions…
Stuck, hiding from my demons
attempting to get up outa my feelings
hard to love when all you've known is heartache
possessed by my own personal devil,
starving me of everything.
creativity skulks behind a wall
confidence is being flayed alive
no-one tries to save the angel from its confines
I run from shame, from embarrassment,
don't ask me how I deal...
truth is, I don't... nothing works
drugs, alcohol... it's all the same
I'll never get closure
the devil whispers I'm never enough
he's been saying it so long I'm inclined to believe him….
-
Author:
kitty the naughty poet (
Offline) - Published: January 2nd, 2022 01:22
- Category: Unclassified
- Views: 27
Offline)
Comments7
But the devil is there to lie to you, dismiss him and look to the good life you would like it to be.
Andy
Thanks for commenting Andy I appreciate it
This is very inspirational and very well written. Keep up the good work!
Thank you
Your welcome
Does Kitty have the same problem? I will ask her when I see her next. Though I risk a swoon! lol.
Though seriously - it can be tricky - going over and over same things, over-analysing. I agree with Goldfinch.
Some things that may help, are saying:
'There's no more that can be done about it.'
'We can't anything more about it today' - or tonight - when we may be worrying about it.
'Too much thinking does us no good' - sometimes true at least!
Hahahaha you do make me giggle 😃
Meanwhile, I went to buy a kitty. They said - we got no cats in at present, but we got a feisty lass you could see, named Kitty. I've gone Kitty mad! lol.
Your words are much akin to the dilemma which incarcerates my mind when i try to write poetry in the absence of my muse.
Bless ya dusk hope they come back
I appreciate your honesty in this poem. It resonates with me in that i have been imprisoned by my own thoughts and demons and believed the lies for most of my life. I also can now appreciate the truth of opening up to others with my story, to gain valuable perspective when i have none of my own… but it is also incredibly risky to be that vulnerable… thanks for sharing
thanks for reading
Thoughts resonated a bit before
But year hooked over with so much to score
Not left with a breathe to sigh
I have been running all while
Don’t let those thoughts stall you
Wish you courage to fight the inner devil
Thanks
To be able to comment and rate this poem, you must be registered. Register here or if you are already registered, login here.