Where does my pain come from,
Down deep in my soul.
All this grief
And disappointment,
Grabs me hard
And refuses to let me go.
My first pain was in my heart,
It squeezed so hard
And ran so deep.
My eyes welled up,
And tears they flowed
The pain stayed there,
And made it a home.
My next big pain,
I was older then
I made him my husband,
And I thought he was a man.
The first time he hit me,
I was confused and crushed
I could not understand.
He hit me so hard,
The blood ran down
All over my chest,
My ears and my toes
He pulled my hair,
And would not let me go.
My heart shrank up,
It idled real slow.
The pain felt like lightening,
And hot burning coals.
And the thunder in my head,
The pain was so tight
I lost all control.
One day I woke up,
To sunshine peaking in.
My heart,
I felt brand new.
I could finally start to heal,
And recover
my new step in life.
I was free once again,
I was on the mend..
I was no longer,
His wife.
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Author:
Tammy Smith Sarazin (Pseudonym) (
Offline) - Published: July 22nd, 2022 00:32
- Comment from author about the poem: About my past relationships, how it went wrong.
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Comments5
Brave stuff, well done,. There is a certain clarity about your writing I find enviable. Well written! Xx
Thanks so much tallisman, It really means a lot
A brilliant poem Raven ! But hard to read, knowing that it 's what happened to you. Continue writing like this and get all your painful memories out !
Thanks so much, I guess that's why I like to write. it gets a lot of things out for me.
I'm sorry for your pain and struggles, dear poet
(it never ceases to amaze me
how many, weak-willed
partners, choose
for their fists, to speak
instead of expressing themselves
in words
when time's get tough, as-if
violence
is supposed to strangle, all
life
from witnessing the pathetic excuse
of a human, they
so evidently are...!)
stay strong! sing loud and proud
Thank you so much, much appreciate your comment. and yes I must stay strong..
Some men seem to think exercising power and control over a woman is normal behaviour.
To earn a woman's respect and trust is much more rewarding.
Yes I agree, unfortunately I have ran across many of these kind of men. I am very content in being by myself these days.
Such powerful words Tammy, I just cannot understand why there is such aggression in marriage of relationships.
So glad you have found a new life.
Andy
Thank you Goldfinch, I am very content in being by myself these days.
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