A Necessary Evil

Bella Shepard

I do not love you

At times I hate you

But I need you in my world

Without you I am disconnected

You are fickle in the attention you pay

On again, off again

I can barely keep up

You deliberately torment me

Changing, morphing

Leaving me behind

And each time I must learn anew

How to live with you

You are unforgiving of my mistakes

And when I feel I will never find my way back

You mock and torment me

My life is inextricably linked to yours

And if could I live without you

I would

But until then

You are a necessary evil

And my only hope is that

Someone, somewhere

Will show me the way

To recover the files that I mistakenly deleted

I could have sworn I hit “save

  • Author: Bella Shepard (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: March 4th, 2023 13:05
  • Comment from author about the poem: I was dragged kicking and screaming into the world of internet. My therapist assures me that I'm making progress, but I have my doubts.
  • Category: Unclassified
  • Views: 40
  • Users favorite of this poem: Fay Slimm., L. B. Mek.
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  • orchidee

    I never knew ya meant me. lol.
    Do shut up Orchi, says Fido! lol.

  • Bella Shepard

    Now Orchi, I would not compare you to the internet, more like a summers day, a breath of fresh air don't ya know. Good boy Fido!

  • Neville

    That just about sums the whole thing up .. Been there done that and worn the T shirt out several times .. Tis bloomin good to know I'm not the only one too .. 🐧

    • Bella Shepard

      Now here's cult for you. We could have meetings, do a lot of complaining, and in the end accomplish nothing which is how it usually works. Thanks for reading my friend, glad to know I'm not in this boat alone.

    • Christina8

      Very good write, Bella! I think there are a lot of folks that share in your discontent.....have a wonderful day!

      • Bella Shepard

        You know what they say "misery loves company". Thank you my friend for reading and for your well wish, hope you've had a wonderful day as well.

      • Fay Slimm.

        What a clever and very meaningful metaphor Bella which on first read fooled me until the last few lines -- then I nodded in sympathy after knowing the same pain of hitting delete................ ooooh this one I keep for when I next press similar Saves dear friend.

        • Bella Shepard

          Thank you my dear friend for reading and commiserating. Fortunately my husband and I sit across from each other, with back to back computers, and many's the time he's saved something I thought was gone forever. Hope the shoulder is getting better.

        • Doggerel Dave

          About halfway through Bella, I was sure you were heading for a divorce and I woz in with a chance....!

          I am meticulous in the creation of a comprehensive file system in my PC email - too comprehensive....a search takes an extreme effort - especially when I go to my deleted items (which I haven't cleaned out for a long time)....but noone told me the archive folders had their own delete file....

          • Bella Shepard

            Dearest Dave, you are a delight. Actually, on more than one occasion my husband has brought back from the dead something I thought I'd never see again. I have to say that admire anyone with a conprehensive file system. Thank you for reading!

          • Goldfinch60

            The internet can have its ways of determining its own way of going but you will overcome it bella.


            • Bella Shepard

              Thank you dear Andy for those reassuring words.

            • rhmn_7

              Neither with nor without, what a quandary...

              • Bella Shepard

                Thank you my friend for reading, your comment is so true.

              • L. B. Mek

                I so relate, dear Poet
                here's my feeble effort, mirroring your theme:

                • Bella Shepard

                  Thank you dear friend for reading and sharing your feeble effort, which is anything but feeble. I think you hit the proverbial nail squarely on the head. I thank you kindly for the fav.

                • sorenbarrett

                  How relatable is that. And at the same time how metaphorical. How much dependency leads to pain and loss. Yes a perfect title too. Necessary evil indeed.

                  • Bella Shepard

                    Ah yes my friend, so much of that in life. Thank you for reading and commiserating.

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