Periodically

In my head I say the perfect words.

I wait cause maybe you relate to this way I hurt.

If I speak I am weak then that is all you see, but  there are those who have it worse than me.

At first they’re excited but get used to my company.

How can I change that now if I had a choice I would do the exact same thing.

You  sing of love as if it still exist.

In my actions I have been proven wrong,  a couple swings and most the time I miss. 

In my head I don’t quit but I feel nothing with everyone it’s no surprise when they switch. 

Border line sociopath read my heart feel my wrath you’ve created your characters online in life alone I will find my path. 

wherever the end lies, there will be burned bridges and cut ties..

Thats how it began you have not left my mind if I have called you friend . 

But I will not linger my misery hates company 

I can accept others but I will not accept myself. 

From the distance I’ll watch you fly with a smile on my face and my heart screams my mind cries.

I became a memory and here is where it lies.