Confined

Confined to a world of craziness & chaos -

Surrounded by strangers,acquaintances,friends & family 

Desolate,alone & solus

Seconds,minutes,hours,days, months & years pass by -

Hiding & running from the pain consumed 

Time standing still & moving in slow motion -

Screaming for help; although nobody can hear my cries

Lost in a vast sea of emptiness & years of hurt, sadness & pain 

Consumed by the thoughts of leaving this world behind

Not one soul would notice me gone 

Grasping & wanting the life I deserve

Reaching harder as the moments of life pass by -

Never grasping it; yet it's right at my finger tips 

Further & further I fall down the rabbit hole 

Is this the life -

That I will continue to lead?

Or  can I find that life I deserve & need?

Lost, broken & an empty shell that takes me through life

Don't know how much longer I can manage this fight

Thoughts keep stirring in my mind -

Confined by a world of craziness & chaos