Why do I

Why do I

Heavy shadows press on me all night

As I search for answers, for my guiding light.

All my motives I expose

I justify every path I’ve chose.

Why do I feel lost and alone

Trapped in the nightmare where the darkness is home.

Why do I beg on my knees, stare at the floor

Where is my sense of purpose, wish I could find once more.

Why do I keep missing the warm tough of your hands

How once we were hot lovers, now barely are friends.

Why do I keep on stabbing my heart, drowning in pain

Being pulled in this love’s twister I cry out in vain.

Why do I always question, what do I seek

The truth is often hidden while lies never cease to speak.

Why do I, your place, my own wish to call

Where’s my sense of belonging, where can I stand tall.

Why do I keep on dreaming of foreign distant lands

Of vast open seas and burning hot sands.

Why do I think I can talk to the wind and count every drop of rain

I must have gone crazy, this cannot be sane.

Why do I feel cold trembling underneath my fears

Getting intoxicated on bitter sweet tears.

Why do I yearn to spread my wings and fly

When only your love can crash me while making me high.

In stillness of silence, look a familiar voice

The echoing whisper pressing me to make my choice.

Why don’t I follow my heart, trust my soul

Only answers I seek will make me whole.