I wanna, but just cant

Your Girlfriend


Notice of absence from Your Girlfriend
Guys I am going to be off for a while to handle some things here at home. LOVES y'all peace!!

I wanna cry but the tears wont come out

I wanna yell but I cant shout

The pain is all way too bottled up

I cant let it all out

Its like when you glue something and you can undo

Unless someone or something makes you

I wanna feel the sadness and anger, but I just cant

The emotion isnt is there but I cannot express it

when I cry there is no tears

When I yell there is no sound

When I'm happy there is no joy

I've kept me feelings all bottled up for so long

I'm scared that if I let it all out 

My world will come crashing down

I am scared to tear down this wall

I've had forever and ever

My wall has always been there

To afraid I'll get moved

Even thought I'm here for good

I'm still scared to let it down 

I know what its like being the one getting moved

But not the one left behind

One day my love we will find

Find each other through the mess

Imma let the past be the past and you know the rest

Yes it is apart of me I need to let go

So here I go babe here I go

I wanna feel these emotions I shut out

But I just cant

I am and was never able to show emotion

Or affection which got me out of relationships

I wanna feel these tear

Like on a rainy day with the rain coming down

And the kids waiting inside until it stops

Or the fearless one and go outside

And over some it and have fun

I wanna have this anger and shout

Like the sun coming out and shinning on a bright day

With people out eating Popsicle and sweating

Kids yelling and playing

Swimming at a pool

I wanna feel happiness 

I wanna be scared,

I wanna feel

Feel emotions

I wanna, but just cant. 

  • Author: Lil-M-M (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: February 8th, 2025 22:45
  • Category: Sad
  • Views: 11
  • Users favorite of this poem: Cheeky Missy
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  • Cheeky Missy

    Alas, I fear this resonates far more than it should, but oh! I know how you feel. Supposedly psychology has a label for the condition, but the reality we wrestle with doesn't find a recurative therein. Exquisitely rendered with superb imagery and a painfully haunting poignancy. Thank you for sharing.

    • Your Girlfriend

      Of course thank you for your comment!

    • teardrop

      Wow, I tru;ly understand your words. I started writing at age 12. It was my only release as far as letting my feelings out. If I didn't have pen and paper, I think I would have exploded. Writing actually became my best friend. Hope your writing helps you funnel some of your confusing feelings. Keep writing!

    • Daddy\'s good boy

      this one hit so deep



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