when i came here,
everything felt too big,
the streets, the silence,
the space between me and home.
i missed the noise,
my siblings laughing,
arguing over nothing,
leaving behind pieces of love in their chaos.
i missed my mother
her voice, her touch,
the way she knew when i was tired
even through a screen.
how her hugs made everything
feel smaller, safer.
and i missed him.
the one who used to hold my hand
like it was a promise.
his texts, his voice,
the way he always knew
how to make me laugh,
even on the worst days.
then the lights went out
for three whole days.
no signal, no calls
just me,
the dark,
and everything i felt.
i cried the first night,
and the second too.
no one knew.
it felt like the whole world forgot me.
but on the third day,
i heard myself
in the silence,
in the stillness.
not strong,
but trying.
and that was enough.
i’m still lonely sometimes,
still miss them all
every laugh, every touch,
every word i wish i could hear again.
but i’m learning to hold it,
to let it shape me
without breaking me.
that kind of love doesn’t go away,it stays,
even in the dark.
i’m starting to get used to it,
not in a numb way,
but in a way that says
‘i’m still here.’
and i’m becoming someone
they’d all be proud of
- Angelica Dsouza
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Offline) - Published: May 31st, 2025 08:40
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Comments4
This poem speaks of independence and growing up and moving on. It is hard and cold but a stronger person it does mold. Very nice
Thank you so much! I'm really glad the message came through. Growing pains can be tough, but they shape us into who we're meant to be. Appreciate your thoughtful words
Wonderfully written and conveys what is commonly called "growing pains" and they are painful, indeed. In fact, this middle-aged guy has learned that those growing pains never stop coming, for we are always growing and moving forward, hopefully. A wonderful, and thought provoking-poem. Welcome to MPS, Angelica. 🌹👏
Thank you so much for this thoughtful and heartfelt message. You're absolutely right — growth doesn’t have an age limit, and the pains that come with it often shape our most meaningful transformations. I really appreciate your warm welcome and kind words. It means a lot to be part of this space
You are most welcome, friend. This is a neat space indeed and I feel the same way. I look forward to reading more of your work.
A wonderful write of maturing into the world as a strong loving caring person, very nicely nicely expressed and written
Thank you so much for your kind words! I’m really glad the heart of the piece came through.. I appreciate you taking the time to read and share your thoughts!
You are very welcome
beautiful write
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