I punish myself
constantly.
I remind myself that no,
that I am nobody.
Silence.
I wait.
Yesterday, son of rigor.
Today, father of patience.
I am aware
that the day of disaster is not mine.
The guilt of the cycle hurts me more.
I did it again.
I destroyed everything.
To the point of begging them to stay.
Don't leave me alone with myself.
I'm in danger!
Spilled blood,
tears, and madness.
The murderer escaped,
the gun, in his hand,
says no more.
I'll trade you all my days for a little piece of paper
that says you forgive me.
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Such passion in this poem it speaks raw and bleeding. With bloody hands the poem is crafted. A fave
Thank you so much for stopping by. This vomit speaks of regret and the realization that the guilt will be eternal. Thank you also for the words of encouragement. Best regards.
Ah. Guilt. It consumes and devours, does it not? Guilt need not be forever, but when one doesn't respond to the plea for forgiveness we are left with having to find closure on our own. That can feel, and for some it is, eternally damning. This is very well expressed in this poem. I have been here...I have carried this regret. Thank you friend. 🌹👏
Damn guilt, that's right, my friend! I'm glad and comforted to know you connected so much with this humble text! Thank you so much for stopping by. Your words of support and understanding are greatly appreciated. Best regards.
You are most welcome, my friend!
Overpowering feeling if guilt can leave us feeling that we chained and being suffocated by it . When our cries and pleas for forgiveness go unanswered we are left to believe this will be eternal, dark, raw and powerful write
Thank you so much, sir, for taking the time to read and leave your words of encouragement for the text. It's a viper that tangles and devours if you get distracted long enough looking at the black lightning. I'm glad you enjoyed it. Best regards!
You are very welcome
Funny, I said too many years ago that the initial for my middle name "S" represented "sorry" since I must apologize all the time. If it's any use, I find the Scriptures comforting, "...there is forgiveness with Thee, that Thou mayest be feared--" and, "...Thou, LORD, art good, and ready to forgive, and plentious in mercy to all them that call upon Thee--" Beautifully rendered with excellent imagery and a haunting, painful poignancy. Thank you for sharing.
Wow, thank you for that story. I really enjoyed it. Glad you enjoyed stopping by and leaving your words of support. Best regards.
You know one of us is gonna say this - so it might be my turn to say it. Not exorcise, but plenty exercise for Obi and Popeye. Don't explain how. Swoon! lol.
Hahaha. Well, I'm glad you took the time to read. If it was you, congratulations! I appreciate you sharing your sincere thoughts. Best regards, and have a great weekend.
The torment and pain is well depicted
Beautifully portrayed
That's right, I'm so glad I was able to connect. Thank you so much for stopping by and leaving your words of encouragement. Best regards!
always happy to recognize and applaud talent
have a productive day
Good write D. Oops, I got some of my comments on poems mixed up!
Oh well, no problem. I'm so glad you stopped by to read and share your thoughts. Best regards.
Are you ok
I feel better now. Thanks so much for asking! I'm glad you stopped by. Best regards.
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