Sometimes I get lost in the process of trying to figure things out,
I have goal that are so important and stressful I want to shout ,
bills piling up and trying to survive ,
sometimes I get lost in the craziness of my own mind,
I’m battling demons that always seem to find,
that place in my head that says I don’t deserve your love,
I can’t help but believe them at times because I’m weak - not tough
there’s things running through my mind that stress me out more than it should ,
and I don’t want you to be stressed as well because I know that you would ,
the pressure I feel is at times unbearable and won’t allow me to rest,
at the times I seem distant it’s because I want to give you my best,
I don’t want you to see me down or see me fall
because you mean so much to me - I only want to stand tall ,
I’m broken and damaged and feel like you deserve so much more ,
is why I seem distant at times when I’ve fallen on the floor ,
I know you’ll pick me up and carry me through these times of pain,
I just don’t want to hold you back which is why I refrain ,
what life has in store - only time will reveal,
I don’t mean to hurt you - I just need time to bow my head and kneel,
im trying to get closer to God as I’m crying out for help,
my angels song I sing at times are only a painful yelp,
please understand why I do what I do,
it’s only because I care so much and don’t want to hurt you
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- Comment from author about the poem: If I seem distant - it’s not because you’re not important enough or low on a list , it’s only because I need to sort things out and battle the lies in my head saying I’m not good enough and that I’ll never be good enough
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Everyone has their own self doubts and this comes through in this poem. A most open write that puts it on the table. Lovely
Thank you my friend
You are welcome
A fine write B. You got those keys?! lol.
Thank you orchi ❤️🫶
In life we have those battles but the love you have for him and the love he has for you will bring all to the good Melissa, Love overcomes all.
Andy
❤️❤️❤️ thank you Andy ,
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