the lighter space

i am sitting in my boyfriends room

alone

he’s out working

and i am writing

by his window

i can hear wind chimes

and the room is so light

everything here 

is so full of light

this is the only place 

i genuinely feel calm

i can’t help but smile

because wow… i am calm

i don’t want to run

there is nothing to run from

his grandmother 

just showed me her jewellery collection

i haven’t felt this included

with anyone

i still have six hours

until he comes home

but i don’t really feel alone

how long i ached to be held

well

right now, i am not

but i cannot feel absence

only love

he took me home impulsively 

and i held my breath

as he asked if i could stay

to which his grandparents said

“of course, that’s okay

how many days?

is there anything you need?

have you eaten?

make yourself at home!”

you can see, i’m sure 

why i do not feel alone

even when you aren’t here

you are 

you don’t feel far

and being here makes me realise

my eyes haven’t cried

the bad thoughts

haven’t crossed my mind

i feel so soft

i feel so mellow

and all this stemmed from a 

“hello

i love your chains

wanna play monopoly someday?”

we still haven’t played 

just you wait

until you return

when i will remind you

how i am going to win

owen

i look at you

and know that i’ve won. 

16:13pm - 25/07/25.