Less than a year ago, a lifetime away
I was a different person
I thought I had everything figured out,
My whole life planned.
But one event led to a landslide,
My life tilted,
Everything becoming muddy,
Mundane
I just stopped living,
I just existed,
For so long,
Just getting pulled along.
For so long I was angry with myself,
For letting everything drop,
For letting myself drift off
But not I know,
I needed to do that,
Or I would have lost my sanity.
For a few months now I’ve finished damage control and moved onto making myself the person I was before all of this
Before my world shifted.
But I’ve recently realised,
That will never happen.
She won’t ever come back
She can’t.
She got shattered along the way
And left shards of herself on my soul,
Scars of her.
So now I realise I don’t have to rebuild her
But make a new person from the shards and the new parts of me I’ve made,
To make a patchwork person,
Bits of who she was,
Who I am now,
Who I will be.
I mean aren’t we all just patchwork people? shattered pieces of our former selves, shattered from others callousness, our own ambitions?
Sometimes I still catch glimpses of her though,
The little squeals I make when I get excited,
The way my nose twitches when I get frightened,
The way I smile when I talk about something that makes me happy
And sometimes,
I even see the light flicker back in my eyes
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Author:
Molly (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: Since November of 2024, I have been quite depressed, I lost myself. The last month or so I've been trying to piece myself back together when I realised it was a futile effort to try regain the person I was before all of this, that I had to move on, that it's a part of growing up and ageing. To accept that I had to embrace the new person I was becoming. I hope you enjoy reading my poem
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Comments3
It is a wonderful write of coming out of dufficult times with a very positive and uplifting attitude, I enjoy reading your writes, nicely expressed and written
A most interesting way of seeing who we become. Pieces we keep and patch together with the new. Very nicely patched and put together.
Yep. You'll always be yourself, but time and circumstances seem to change what was until we struggle to recognize what is as what was. Gorgeously rendered with excellent imagery and a bittersweet, haunting poignancy. Thank you for sharing.
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