As I open my eyes
I can feel a stinging sensation
I do not close them, but keep them open
And ignore the pain so I may see
I am encased in blue
It surrounds me
And tosses me about
It swallows me whole
Making me feel powerless
I look up and see the fractured sunlight
Glimmering like a precious stone
And I know that it is part of a different world
The one I will not be part of any longer
I am going elsewhere
And shall never return.
My lungs are aching now
I cannot hold my breath anymore
So I inhale the blue surrounding me
It fills my lungs
I have never felt pain quite like this before
It is the type of pain
That will make one feel small and weak
A desperate kind of pain; a relentless one
But it will be over shortly.
I make sure not to close my eyes
And focus on the chiseled diamond in the sky
I can see the shapes of other people above me
They are happy
For they are ignorant
They do not know that I am below them, preparing to take my final breath
I think I am crying
But I cannot tell; there is water all around me.
I feel myself tremble
Not because I am cold
I am shaking with fear
Fear of what lies ahead
In the next world
The fear is fading now
Along with my vision
I am not quite here
But I am not yet gone
I simply am.
I do not see the light now
I see images of the past
And images that are foreign
There are bright colors
Rapidly flickering and moving
The images leave just as quickly as they appeared.
I am alone with the darkness
And now, as the last bit of air escapes my lungs
I know that I am doing the right thing
The rest I go to now
Is a more peaceful rest than I have ever had...
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Author:
katherinem7 (
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- Comment from author about the poem: This is a bit of a morbid (and also strange) free verse poem that I wrote about suicide by drowning. I know it's nearly impossible to kill oneself that way, but I don't think poetry necessarily has to make much sense; it's the way it makes you feel that matters.
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THANKS KATHERINE - A great "free verse" poem. I'm sure you don't want to drown yourself - BUT - if you do remember to tie a heavy weight to yourself before you jump in and you will drown ! I have been in difficulty in water twice and there was a lot of what I experienced in you poem. You can see the surface but you can't reach it - I was trapped in a lake underwater in weeds ! When i was a child I jumped in the deep end (six feet) and inhaled the water - awful - someone pulled me out and pumped the water out ! I still love water but would never jump off a bridge to end it all - unless it was a Motorway Bridge ! A great poem and it made me shiver ! Thanks for sharing. Yours BRIAN
I've personally never come close to drowning, but recently, the son of my mother's former roommate drowned. I never knew him, but ever since it happened I've been terrified of lakes. I wrote this poem from his perspective, trying to imagine how it felt to him. I'm hoping I'll never know for sure.
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