Inner Demon

MoonJem1989

Shrouded by darkness, it lingers here within a part of my heart. It does not leave nor part

Clouds my mind with what ifs and why nots

I can't make it stop. I try and try to break myself from it

The chains that still bind me

Will I ever break free? Will I ever forget you?

Why must love linger around me, with memories of what was but never could have been?

Someday I wish to love again

Until then I  must fight my "demon"

It calls to me, beckoning me with a promise of change-

A change that comes too late and was never there

Suffocating the very air I breathe, manipulating the heart and mind

A brain washed with false love, blind sided, broken and torn

My heart scorned as the realization set in, a mask to cover it up the true pain

A risk where true love couldn't be seen

So I ran as far as I could pushing people away as I went to free myself

A past filled with abuse, lies and pain

For it is now freedom I've given myself

A girl lost for so many years, masked by my worst fear

I can now finally find.

Spent wandering among loneliness

I vaguely see the light, dimmed but visible enough for my eyes to see

As a tree I shall rise and overcome, slow to start but growing each day

Reaching the sky soon enough able to see that it was that very "demon" I needed.

 

  • Author: JemmieMoon (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: June 15th, 2016 00:24
  • Comment from author about the poem: We all have demons that we fight every day, sometimes even years it seems. This was based off of a very bad break up I had gone through and the pain amongst many things that I had dealt with including trying to move on as I did and still do care and love this person even though they broke me down to a point I didn't think I would come back from. Love does hurt no matter what anyone tells you. It hurts when your heart gets broken by the one person whom you felt would never break it.....sadly it does happen and it has happened to me more then once. I hope you enjoy this poem!
  • Category: Sad
  • Views: 90
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  • BRIAN & ANGELA

    "I hope you enjoy this poem" Ohhhhh JESS this is a great poem full of passion and heartbreak and skillfully written - BUT - Because of the content so so sad and NOT enjoyable ~ I'm crying already ! Yes JESS we do all have demons and the problem is they are inside us ~ so they go with us wherever and whenever we go Demons of lost love are the worst. A lovely lady like you should be able to free herself and overcome ! Love you ending and it did give me some hope and dry my tears ! "As a tree I shall rise and overcome ~ Slow to satrt but growing each day ~ Reaching the sky soon enough ~ Able to see that it was the very "demon" I needed !" Poems are always cathartic and (in time) demons can be too. Thanks for sharing - Thinking of you ~ Yours BRIAN



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